My illusions of grandeur and great success with this Love Challenge quickly faded to my dismay, as the epic snow storm rolled in this week, a head cold took residence in my body, and my little families needs overshadowed my quiet time of preparing my heart for 'service'. I have not followed the prayer calendar like I had hoped, not read the verses of encouragement given, and resorted to my old standby's of demonstrating 'love' to Mr. Warren instead of switching things up a bit.
But guess what....illusions aren't real....they're made up images in my mind of what I 'expect' something to be or turn out like. I have thought much about this and reviewed my week as Mrs. Warren and realized that I HAVE been more loving to my husband, he HAS seemed more at ease and happy, we HAVE been drawn together in joy more than normal, and our home IS a happier place. Why? Because even though my illusions were busted, I am still making more of an effort to serve my husband and put his needs above my own which means I am still in the race and I am still moving forward in this Love Journey! So I'm not giving up...I'm pressing on...and I pray you will too so we can cross that finish line together!
What's been hard is realizing that even though I may make an extra effort to love Nate, sometimes he's just not going to respond how I would like him to respond. My love and respect has to be unconditional for him at all times!
ReplyDeleteSometimes I don't know how to be a very good support for him - especially when he's struggling with certain moods. Then I feel frustrated not only because he isn't being as affectionate as I'd like, but also because I feel like I'm not accomplishing what I'm supposed to be. He can't always tell me what he wants me to do or say to be supportive...so we're learning together. It's a good process.
I'm learning as we go how vital my own personal time with the Lord is - to be refreshed and restored daily, and to be reminded that He is my satisfaction - not Nate. It's good.